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Saturday, November 27, 2004
just back from sj.. ANCO SNCO SMC COMPTEAM ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. before fall in mam sl passed me 5 new hn manual stuff. Nc suppose to start reading up. so we went wadehell...... changed into uniform. was ages ago since i wore. then had team discussions that was funny i remember.. my timeline was shit then eugene don't know how to present, JX and amer tricked me abt some stuff and i didnt even know haha =/ 5. hr. long presentation that was suppose to be 1half hours. i guess the seniors thought too highly of us? basicaly evrythin had problems. esp youthling's one that made val and ch so pissed. chenrui has been slacking and slacking and i'm suppose to condemn him here rite val. haha.. anyway val n ch did very well i think. i wud have complained n died. my group's one was fine.. yepp.. happyhappy although have to go hiking next tuesday, audrey's birthday lorr. anyway this marks the end of the ANCO prep.. almosssst ending. mam sheryl gave me more things to do with smc1. buy a list of things which michelle says sounds like a spell. sheep bone, white and black plasticine, 6songs in a cd, 6 short case scenerios, olive oil, 4 cases of grey and white powder and oside from mustafa shopping centre. hand in a activity report on the nightwalk. and my own stuff tt i can handle. my comments: its stupid. its stupid to do and get nothing. i do, we do, but i feel tt we are treated as servants. we have snco anco not enough. we do so much the std1s dont even think we are any major part of their lifes. we pass out they think we are normal. std4s taking their training this saturday. i rather do that then go on a treasure hunt around singapore for stupid stuff. i want to execute something i planned. i dont want the std1s to see me and ask each other ' whats her name ' i want to make an impact on them. i dont want some dumb shit things. what choice do i have. comp team, feel tt its my fault. shd really go and talk together as a team. unrealistic to think we can don't continue. but somehow.. teach me how to? no more fire, sec3 already want to die. i was the one who didnt give up this yr n kept motivating them. but my fire has ceased already. its too tiring. ohyea, convince my dad too okay? i just want to thank the smc1 guys who sudd became very nice when i cried. didnt cry on purpose or anything but i ask for paper then they all find paper from their bags, i ask pen then they find pen. whaa.. unlike them really.. cooperative too. dickson junxiang xiaowen eugene etcetc rawks. i really quite amused and touched by them.. love the guys. cooperative for the first time in ages. the squad girls who wanted to accompany us in back to school. don't make sense but its really very nice an offer for them already.. although they keep calling me miserrrr.. great people :) i guess nobody wants so much crap to pile up over their heads. all i really like is the way i feel support from all my squadmates when im dying. they are there. they have crap over their heads too. and i shall just pia hard with them while i have the chance. they can give up too if they want. but they didnt. i wun give up and let the work double pile up on their head. till then std4s. POP. nothing keeping me. sqd all seperated. std1s dun even remember me. byebye forever to sj. YESTERDAY yesterday someone flew off.. met to pass and receive stuff tt hopefully can keep me thru the week. very touched and happy with the effort tt you put in.. :) *ilu sorry michelle cos i was late to meet you.. i ran to meet michelle can. n she said i look stupid but i felt bad. her fault tt she tel me mp den i was at mp library and she went marine parade there. lol. she gave me very very nice disney stuff like the keychain thin n a photoalbum and thks again publicly here. best friends always!! toktoktok abt stuff with her and went to the 3a bbq. ehhh.. quite floppish. attendance wise. i only can remember talking to HAM non stop and then playing HUNTER AND BEAR. HAM has loads to say after not meeting for ages. talk abt evrything under the sun.. our trips, our lives, and al the lame things and apparently they haven changed. stil as bad to me lorr. haha.. got audreys souvenir frm her trip too n shuang got a nice extra one lol.. i bet she LOVES it. got my incredibles postcard n i love it too heh. went breakwater n tt girl has to make ym thighs pain cos she sat on me cos she wear white pants. talk abt other issues that is sian but really dun care already yeaa. take ur advice n stop being childish n heck it. hunter and bear. my class girls so noisy, damn convincing. yingxiu especially. she lie so well okayy. den we always tricked. funfun play for few hrs. and i was a lousy gamemaster.. and i always chosed huishuang.. and as usual just biased against her.. damn funny lol. thats al. long entry. im going to do sj stuff now le.. byebye people! |